Internet and Boredom and Uptightness

My internet sucks! Really sucks. It takes a loooooong while before i can browse on sites.

Anyway,

Masarap na ang pakiramdam ko ngayon. Pagkatapos kong malampasan ang hell week ko last week, nag momove on na ako ngayon. Thanks to my planner! I dont know kung psychological effect lang yun pero parang organized talaga ako when it comes to my deliverables. I finish all my requirements, internal deadlines, and still feel relaxed kahit na parang stressed na dapat.

So, if someone would be curious enough to see my planner, there you can see all the things I have accomplished and the things i would like to accomplish. Andun din yung outline ko for my New Year's Resolution but unfortunately, I'm not able to fill in the blanks up to this time. I lack the energy, motivation, and time to do so.

Tomorrow (I mean later), magpapasa na ako ng resume sa job fair. Though I'm a bit half-hearted sa pagpasa ng resume sa job fair, gagawin ko pa rin. Nothing to lose but papers (and calories for walking). Kasi naman, companies feel so important kapag job fairs. Hindi pinapansin yung sandamakmak na resumes na tinatanggap nila. Some lang naman. Others still call. Mga 1 or 2 companies. Going back to my resume, naimpress ako sa ginawa ko! Haha. Sana pati mga companies din maimpress.

Haha.

I feel overwhelmed. Ang ingay ng utak ko. Ang daming gustong ilabas. Kanina nga nung tinatyoe ko yung 2nd paragraph, isinisigaw nya na gumawa ako ng outline for this post, but my hands said "No no never never ah ah ah". (Do you know this song?).

Haha.

1. So last tuesday, we were the 2nd best group in Brand Management's Round 1 (Brand Introduction). GO ENERVON! If we (meaning, Nica and I) only practiced religiously for that report, we could have been number one. We believed that we had the greatest analysis of Enervon's current situation but we only lack on presentation matters. (The best group received 93, us 92) First time mangyari nito. Haha. Usually kasi, kapag kami nina Nica and/or Anna ang nagprepresent, puro presentation and entertainment, walang content. Haha. This time, puro content naman. SO proud. Haha. We'll do our very best, exert our very best, and be as a group at our very best next time. Enervon will be the number one brand! (At least for 177)
2. And also, who would forget (did anyone know?) my acting stint in PI 100 last tuesday? Haha. I played Satanas in Rizal's play, "Junta al Pasig". Napakadaling role. Kahit nakalimutan ko kung kelan ang next pasok ko, nagampanan ko pa ring mabuti. It runs in the blood. Haha. And nica's planner even said, "Ace became an actor in PI 100, Kudos! (or clap clap, or great job, can't remember exactly) Haha. I hope we got 1.00 for that. We should be! My first long exam had an encircled 3.00 in it.
3. Yabang Pinoy's "Takbong May Yabang" will be on Sunday na. Registration starts at 5am, run starts at 6am. So go na runners! It's your time to shine, and burn those calories while graciously shouting your Filipino pride! Overnight na kami sa Saturday, 3.30 kasi call time. Goodluck UP ABAM Yabang Pinoy!
   

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On other thoughts,

Kanina, tahimik lang ako. Sabi ni caloy sa akin, may problema ka? Sabi ko meron. Pero personal, non-lovelife, non-friend, non-sexual problem. Alam nyo sabi nya?

ALAM KO NA!

Sabi ko naman (with an obvious defensive tone), hindi ako nakabuntis! Wala akong STD!

Caloi: Talaga? Alam ko na!
Ace: Huh? Anong alam mo?
Caloi (in my ears): Hindi ka na tinitigasan no?
Ace (shouting): Gago ka! Never ko magiging problema yun! Haha.

See. Minsan, looks really deceive. Hindi mabait si Caloi. Haha.

Pero alam nyo kung bakit ako malungkot? Kasi tinatamad ako gumawa ng interview project sa 198. Nakakatamad. Eh natatakot naman ako mapahiya sa class. Saka sira kasi yung ginagamit kong laptop. Wala ring DSL. So baka hindi na naman ako makapag internet. Kakalungkot di ba? By the way, 2 days in a row na akong maagang natutulog! As in 10pm tulog na ako! Bravo! I- congratulate nyo ako. Pero kahit naman ganun, antok na antok pa rin ako sa school. So eto, nagpupuyat na ulit ako.

Uptight talaga ako dahil sa 198! Pero in fairness, i learned a quote, that i hope to apply to my life, from BA 198 kanina. It goes,

Don't look forward too long, you tend to not focus on the task at hand.

May kasunod pa yan. Something like, "take everything on bite sizes while keeping the whole picture in mind".

Ganda! Galing! Gaga! Haha. Gusto lang gumawa ng triple G.

So anyway, i really hope to really apply this to my life. Really.

My internet sucks! Really sucks. It takes a loooooong while before i can browse on sites. Dahil mabagal sya, hinabaan ko na itong post ko. Sooolit.

By the way, my deep apologies to any foreigners reading my posts. I can't write in pure English not only because i'm not good in English, but also because i believe that it loses my supposed meaning if it were not written in my own language.

Bye.

While reading one of my friend's site, i saw that wishes turn into reality if it is in written words. That, according to here, is the power of words. So here goes my wishes.
On April 2009, I will graduate with honors. As in Cum Laude.
By May 2009, I will be employed as management trainee in a reputable company receiving reputable salary.
By June 2009, she will begin to study.

Tired

Please welcome me back.

I've been busy for a while. Actually, i am feeling very busy for quite some time, probably since time immemorial.

Before writing this post, i was thinking of something profound to share with you. But as you might see, I failed. I am too lazy to think of something worthy of sharing with you my dear intellectuals.

American Idol is distracting me. Haha.

SO, yesterday, i was with my Yabang Pinoy friends. For the benefit of everyone, Yabang Pinoy (Filipino arrogance, or more like, pride) is an advocacy campaign aiming to boost each Filipinos pride especially now that some think that they have lost their national identity. Someone from this organization had to shoot for her thesis last night about Filipino identity. She's a Filipina, who spent her formative years in Malaysia, and is now experiencing identity crisis. To her, she is a Filipina. But she can't feel nor think nor consider herself Filipina.

We (Tim, Weng, Emm, and I) were there to share our thoughts about national identity. It was more on sharing our personal experiences and thoughts on being Filipino - from the most obvious and unique traits to the things we Filipinos are proud of. The experience turned out really fun although it ended at around 12am already. It opened a whole new perspective for me. It made me feel more proud to be a Filipino.

For me, our problem lies only on our notion of regionalism. Due to our distinct archipelago, most Filipinos are divided into different subcultures united by the province where each lives. Like me, for instance, I tend to be more inclined to being a Caviteno, with minimal inclination on being a Filipino. The same applies to our fellow countrymen (i.e. Bicolano, Bisaya, Ilocano). To me, that is our problem. Most of us do not feel that unifying identity that each of us have - we are Filipino.

Filipino for me is something no one chose nor something any of us can avoid. This is us. We are Filipino. No matter where we go, no matter what we do, whether we like it or not, as long as we are here in the Philippines, we are Filipinos.

Now going back to my not-so-serious post, I feel that i am not in my most favorable mood right now. I don't like my performance, i feel that i am lacking on a number of things, and i am just not-so-liking whatever i am doing right now.

I have been trying to do my best in terms of academic requirements for the last 7 semesters. I've been trying to graduate with honors. But what am i doing now?

I always feel sleepy. I am always lazy. And i am always not in the mood to work. Sleeping and slouching have been my favorite hobbies. Yet, come midnight, i can't sleep. WHAT?

I dont know what's my problem. I want to graduate with honors but i dont feel the motivation to do so. Help.

Tomorrow, I'll be jogging in UP. Haha.

On McDo Commercial

It has been talked about by (hopeless) romantics, girls and boys alike. They say its sweet, while some OA say its heartbreaking. To me?

WALA LANG.

Please don't get me wrong. I'm not bitter nor loveless nor whatever. Tingin ko lang, matalino yung nag spearhead ng commercial. Ginamit nya kasi yung "Huling El Bimbo" ng Eraserheads!

Imagine the commercial with other songs like P.S. I Love You ni Sharon Cuneta or Bleeding Love ni Leona Lewis. Would the commercial be just like it is? Of course not.

Haha. What's the point of telling this?

Nerd kasi ako nung napanuod ko yan. Kinilabutan kasi ako. So inisip ko kung bakit. Hindi naman kasi ganun kalakas effect sa akin nung first love thing. Kasi... basta! Hindi kami pwede nung first love ko. Taken na sya. As in may baby na. Kaya hindi yung concept ang nagpataas ng balahibo ko - yung song lang. Actually, childhood days ko nga ang naalala ko hindi lovelife. Anyway, kudos to the team who made the commercial. galing! Sana ganyan din tumakbo isip ko. Haha.

Another point is, FILIPINOS, please don't get too deceived by the commercial. Support Filipino! Support Jolibee and other Filipino companies!

YABANG PINOY!

For a copy of the commercial, here it is.

Sick of This

i'm sick and tired of all these games. These games you try to feed me but it feels the same.
- Queen Paranoia, Slapshock

I'm sick. Not because of whatever but because of a fever. Grabe ang lamig, nakakahina ng immune system. From December 28 till now, may sipon pa rin ako. Mawawala, tapos bumabalik pa rin.

What about this sickness?

Nakaka bad trip. Nakakapanghina, nakakapanlambot, nakaka bobo, nakaka walang gana. Tamad na nga ako, natritriple pa dahil sa sipon ko. Gusto kong umabsent pero hindi ko naman magawa. Kung gagawin ko kasi yun, mas mahirap for me.

What made this feeling worse is that i feel like... (emo) parang wala akong mahingian ng help. I want to rest but i can't. I need help, but i don't know to whom i should ask or what kind of help do i really need. Gulo.

175 Case Digest
PI 100 Reading of report
198 Draft
ABAM
Angkan

It makes me feel a little relieved whenever I list down my "deliverables" - responsibilities, ok.

I want to graduate now!

Perhaps tomorrow, or next month, basta sooner.

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Naisip ko bigla how fotunate i am to have something to look forward to. Graduation. In a few weeks, graduate na ako. Apart from this, i am also looking forward to having my own money - working in a prestigious company. But after graduation and after being hired as a management trainee, what else could i look forward to?

Scary.

Everyone is REQUIRED to Support This.

MINOR CHANGES
Registration starts at 5 am, run starts at 6am.
Venue: UP Academic Oval.
Contact me for details: 0906 5538760

Welcoming Acads Back

It's the 9th day of the first month of the year, already 5 days since the long vacey, and still, i don't want to work.

Nakakatamad pa bumalik sa school. Or better yet, tamad pa rin pala ako. Wala akong gustong gawin kundi matulog lang. Ang sarap tumunganga lang at mag-isip sa kawalan. I miss reminiscing my past - my promdi past. I miss innocence, kabaduyan, kaguluhan with my fellow promdi, and the serenity of the province.

Ewan ko pero this is the first time that i felt so attached to my homeland. It feels like every day here in the city is new, as if i haven't been here for a long time. Naninibago ako - that's it. Tagal ko inisip yung term.

Ang dami kong workload but i feel so lazy to do any of these. Siguro dahil matagal pa naman deadline. Yung system ko kasi, epal, kapag matagal pa ang deadline unproductive. Kapag in a few hours na lang deadline na, saka nagmamagaling.

By this time, i should be doing my paper in 177, assignment in 106, reading Junta al Pasig of Rizal pero ano? Tinatamad ako!

Grabe.

Pano kaya ako yayaman nito? Eh ang tamad tamad ko. Tapos feeling ko hindi na ako masyado competitive.

Teka.

(after 2 minutes)

Inisip ko talaga kung paano ako yayaman. Haha. And i realized na kaya pala ako tinatamad dahil inaantok ako. Masyadong mabigat ulo ko at the moment. Actually ngayong week na ito. Actually ever since. Haha. Pero minsan kasi sobrang inspired ko eh. May mga araw na sobrang sipag ko, organized (by the way, meron na akong planner at file accordion, haha), at sobrang inspired. Pero kahit na ganun, mas marami pa rin yung tamad ako. OK. Humanda kayo sa akin, I WILL BE RICH! I will. You will all look up to me. Soon. Sasali ako sa game knb?.

Potalech. Harsh word na naman. Baka maiskandalo na naman si Mam Gamo sa words ko o kaya isumbong na ako ni Caloy sa Mom nya for being obscene.

WALANG KWENTA tong post ko. Wala talaga ako sa mood. Sana bumalik na mood ko. Hindi na ako productive eh. Patapon na naman ako. Shet.

First Post

I wanted to post a great starter but... someone ruined my thoughts. Happy New Year!