On Leave

So everyone, today is my first month at work. But as you may have noticed, I am not at work.

I'M SICK!

Shit. 1 and a half day akong absent dahil sa sakit ko which is hopefully not AH1N1. Masakit lang naman ang ulo ko, tapos giniginaw ako pero hindi naman ako inuubo masyado at sinisipon. Must be the fatigue.

Did you know na last week eh 3 hours a day lang ang average sleep ko? Ang galing no. Dahil yun sa exams at revalida ko. Fuck. Bumigay tuloy ang systema ko.

Ayoko na ulitin yung ganun. Next time, hindi na ako mag cracram, and hindi na ako magpupuyat ng sobra.

I pushed myself too hard kaya eto ang naging resulta.

Medyo okay na naman ako. Hindi lang ako pumasok today to ensure na okay na okay na ako pagbalik ko sa work. As advised by our HR, mas crucial kasi yung lecture bukas so might as well take a leave today at bukas na lang ako pumasok.

So there, please pray for me, if i's not too much to ask. Mapait pa rin ang panlasa ko, hindi ako makapag ingay, at wala akong ginawa kundi matulog.

iHasta la vista!

Sick of This

i'm sick and tired of all these games. These games you try to feed me but it feels the same.
- Queen Paranoia, Slapshock

I'm sick. Not because of whatever but because of a fever. Grabe ang lamig, nakakahina ng immune system. From December 28 till now, may sipon pa rin ako. Mawawala, tapos bumabalik pa rin.

What about this sickness?

Nakaka bad trip. Nakakapanghina, nakakapanlambot, nakaka bobo, nakaka walang gana. Tamad na nga ako, natritriple pa dahil sa sipon ko. Gusto kong umabsent pero hindi ko naman magawa. Kung gagawin ko kasi yun, mas mahirap for me.

What made this feeling worse is that i feel like... (emo) parang wala akong mahingian ng help. I want to rest but i can't. I need help, but i don't know to whom i should ask or what kind of help do i really need. Gulo.

175 Case Digest
PI 100 Reading of report
198 Draft
ABAM
Angkan

It makes me feel a little relieved whenever I list down my "deliverables" - responsibilities, ok.

I want to graduate now!

Perhaps tomorrow, or next month, basta sooner.

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Naisip ko bigla how fotunate i am to have something to look forward to. Graduation. In a few weeks, graduate na ako. Apart from this, i am also looking forward to having my own money - working in a prestigious company. But after graduation and after being hired as a management trainee, what else could i look forward to?

Scary.