Friday Solitude

Solitude is a state of seclusion or isolation, i.e. lack of contact with people or love. It may stem from bad relationships, deliberate choice, contagious disease, disfiguring features, repulsive personal habits, mental illness, or circumstances of employment or situation.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solitude

I am alone, Friday night.

Solitude seems to love me so much that it doesn't want to leave me for the time being. Friday night, clubbing nights, enjoy nights - to me, it's an empty night.

Parang sira ulo. Kanina, gusto kong mag-isa. Ayoko muna ng maraming tao at ayokong makipag-usap sa iba. Sobra ang antok ko kaya pinili ko na lang ang maging mag-isa sa kwarto - iniwan ko lahat ng tao sa labas ng sarili ko. Ayoko ng BA friends, ayoko muna kay Q, ayoko sa lahat.

Pero bakit ngayon, MAG-ISA PA RIN AKO?

Ang labo. I chose to be alone but it seemed that i don't have a choice but to be alone. Or better yet, did i have a choice in the first place? Can i not avoid this? Labo.

Got a couple of things to do. Read Blue Ocean Strategy, fix my clothes, heal myself (yuck), and a lot more.

Masama lang siguro ang gising ko.

I am not as especial as i thought i were.

Thanks God. Thanks solitude. I should learn to love you now.