Despite other people’s notion (myself included pala), I actually get pleasure from moments of silence. Moments where I can actually talk to myself, hear the thoughts (inside my mind), rejuvenate, and think about things (that may seem worthless but are actually invigorating), give me the comfort and weird personal satisfaction.
Due to these moments, I have come up with some thoughts that I believe to be worthy of sharing.
1. My legs are aching like argh!
Fuck that practical exam in Consumer Behavior. Fuck the thought that we had to “stalk” a member of our target market. Fuck these target markets who made us walk from 5th floor down to the 1st, and climb up again, not knowing if they knew we were following them. Fuck that maghapon lakad all around Shang EDSA (from 11 am to near 5 pm) Fuck. Ang sakit sakit ng paa ko!
As I’ve told my groupmates, I never ever really enjoyed shopping. I hate my mom, my sister, girl relatives, girlfiends (with and without space) for making me walk to and fro these stores! I hate it when they fit and check and touch and compare and talk about buying or wearing or having all these damn merchandise. I really hate it why they seem not to have the guts to know what they like. On second thought, what they will buy.
I hate my legs. It’s always like these whenever I am walking that much especially when inside a mall I’ve always been like these whenever I’m with a girl buddy. Today, however, was different. We were not shopping – we were stalking. Fuck.
2. Grad Pic on Monday
I really wonder what I would look like. I wish it won’t be bad. No not bad, I mean it should be good. Really good. Something I could brag to all the people who could see.
On the other hand, I am currently feeling bad about my creative shot. Am I really overly pretentious? Fuck. I wish I could think of some other concept even this late. I regret signing up for a creative shot. I should have picked the other package (without creative shot). That way, I could save money, free myself from thinking of a concept, and keep myself away from the thought of looking bad.
3. I’m not sure if Feasib and/or Orgpres excite me.
Sept 16 OrgPres
We are really in a grave danger. We only have nothing but concept. No practice, just meetings. No polishing, just steps. Ah. Go for threepeat. JPIA, JMA, CE, wag nyo masyado galingan.
Sept 19 Feasib deadline
This and next week will be our Financial study week, which means, my hell week. I want an inspiration, gazillion confidence, and huge amounts of will and determination to finish a thorough financial study for our group. I know I can do this. I just have to cram.
4. I am …
thinking about my 173 individual paper
wanting to do my Spanish assignment
worrying about my things that I will bring home to Cavite on Monday
wondering what my Mom and Dad are thinking about my “not-going-home” this weekend
excited about what’s gonna happen to UP’s cheerdance tomorrow
wishing that we’ll push through with our 168 tomorrow
going crazy
wanting to sleep
craving to cut my legs (still aching sooo badly, or so it thought)
… ending this post.
Night fellas!
73 days na lang Christmas na!
50 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako! 