Graduation

Yeah.

People never seem to get tired of writing about graduation posts. All these sadness, paranoia, reminiscence (?) - all of these are consistently occupying my mind (and my heart) since I experienced last day in a class.

It's sad to bid farewell to you my friends because we knew we may not see each other again. It's even harder to leave especially when you've been used to everyday classes and chitchats within and outside classes. To me, it's hardest to move on and let go of the happiness I am feeling when I think it has just started.

Graduation indeed arouses mixed emotions. Remembering previous valedictory speeches I've heard, happiness mixed with sadness coupled with anxiety are almost always part of every speech. And we sure think that's right. For graduation is all about leaving, going to new places, and being left alone in the center of the world.

No, this is not THE graduation post. I prefer to have it scattered here in my account. I prefer to write all these feelings as they come. I don't want to block these thoughts so as to come up with a wowowiway graduation post. I prefer to cherish the moment, keep it from fading, and unleash it at a right time when i feel that i am ready. Ready to reminisce and break down and cry.

Yes, that's the reason why I can't do a reminiscent post. For it will bring out a lot of emotions, mostly happy, some sad, some humiliating. I will miss you all. I will miss going to school.